For those of you who maybe sufferers of this horrid disease you have my sympathy.
My body is now pulling against me from teh years of suffering and pain I have put it through. My eyesight is leaving me fast and my Gums are in a bad way not to mention the enamal on my teeth is very thin and I am hyper sensitive to hot and cold.
My matabalism is shot and no matter what I do my heart rate does nothing to burn callories anymore.
Not to mention that I hate it when I get a bout of teh guilts and purge even a salad that overfills me in my mind is enough to throw me into a spin. I would love to find a diet that can kick start weight loss and help me loose weight and at teh same time stop me from feeling guilty and pruging. I need to have the full feeling and I think I need to eat less more often but I just dont have the information at hand. maybe I will do some searches on line and see what I can find.
My weight has increased steadily the last 6 minths and I am eating right and excersising but alas I cant loose it and its starting to piss me off. I hate who I am and I hate that others can see it in my now dead eyes, my wife wont come near me and I think she is repulsed by my weight gain. Then she hates it if she knows I purge as well because I might set off one of our daughters if they see me. I am lost I need help and I can help others at the same time why is that? My writing is the only thing that helps me. I have 4 blogs now including this one and three novels published. You can find them on Amazon and iBookstoor as well as Barnes and Nobles.
I am thinking of writing a story of my bulimia and how it has effected my life and my mind over teh 48 years of my life I would love to hear from anyone who might think this is a good or bad idea.
Well I am off to see if I cant loose some of this weight.
