At the moment I am fighting th demons inside. I just cant seem to loose any weight at all no matter what I do. My body is rebelling against me for the 30 years of abuse and my metabelisam is telling me to go F$ck myself.
I just cant get my head straight. I want to be good but the temptation is there its almost like being a junkie - one more hit wont hurt, nothing has happened so far so what will one little purge hurt. Thats what its like living as a Bulimic! its not like you can take a tablet and its all better, no its a mental affliction and a sustainable high that is self image! I just dont know what to do.
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